The Lovely & Infamous
Hey! Shayna Steiner! I am 18 years old and I currently live in Thousand Oaks, CA. I like to do a lot of things such as drawing, photography, hiking and hanging out with my friends.
As of lately I’ve been struggling with saving all of my money. I sorta kinda got a thing for spending money on little things such as going to thrift stores and finding stuff second hand for a lot cheaper than usual. Plus, I love expressing who I am through clothing and weird outfits so it’s hard not to get something new. I also find myself spending a lot on food, cameras that I collect and gifts for loved ones
So far the hardest thing I’ve had to deal with was attempting to commit suicide when I was around the age of 13-14 years old. This was around the summer of freshman in high-school. The hardest part of attempting suicide was my family’s reactions, some were angry, some were deeply affected, and some just didn’t know how to react. I didn’t feel better afterwards and I had to spend a three day stay in a mental institution during fathers day. My best friends at the time would visit me in the hospital and talked to me, played games to distract me, etc. It really helped especially when people treated me the same as before. I’m not friends with the people that I was at that time but I still appreciate what they did. I always thought of how time is always carrying me away from the pain I felt in the moment, and how eventually it would carry me away from the pain I felt wanting to not live anymore. I have worked on my mental health significantly since then and the improvements are noteworthy. It was an awful experience but one I am grateful for today.
The happiest moment of my life so far has to be the moment I turned the age of 18 years old. This was literally the moment I’ve gained my freedom! I no longer had to listen to my mother who I’ve had a terrible relationship with due to the fact that she suffered with an alcoholic addiction.